at least for today.
i received my result for my finals a few days ago and it's higher than i could ever imagine. the thing that has been bothering me for a few months has resolved. my family is doing better. my friends are happier. amidst all these good things happening, why am i still sad? am i simply ungrateful or is that just basically my personality? does me being a sad person justify my feelings? or at least does it validate how i actually feel? why can't i have things my way? at least for today? to everyone else, it's one of the days in our existence when we want to feel happier than the days before and days after. unreasonably happier. unjustified. unexplained. it just feels like how its supposed to be but ironically to me, this day in particular is the only day in every year where i can be sad. unjustified. unexplained. today i woke up feeling terribly hollow and empty, the same feelings i brought to bed with me the night before. well, that's probably because it's today. t...
