things I wanted to say but couldn't (part one)
Today I start my day with wet cheeks, a warm tea, and a heavy heart. Despite my incapacity to show appropriate emotions at the right time or at the right place, you had never fail to bring out things I didn't know I could ever feel. Anyways, I find words very comforting and the greatest gift one could give, so here's one for you wonderful, annoying, tak senonoh human being.
This one right here, I don't even know how to start. The one whom I owe shit loads of thank you(s) and sorry(s) to. Having the chance to be in the same class with you is definitely a blessing for me (indeed, God knows best and I hope you feel the same. If not, aiyok tak redho). In a way, I lost most of my previous friends in sem 1 but having you alone makes up for them all. Thank you for never giving up on me, for taking care of me every single day in sem 2, being the only reason I was able to go through sem 2 without breaking down as much. The first few months was so hard, I can't even deny that. Broke down 24/7, cried so much, cursed every day dah macam zikir (astaghfirullah ampun). Thank you Balqis, thank you for everything. From laughing together at all our stupid jokes, hair pulling, hitting bothering annoying each other, karaoke dalam toilet, making sure that I feel belonged (regardless in class or at home) to merajuk sebab markah test tinggi gila.You're an amazing person with incredible patience and a wonderful heart. I hope you continue to ligthen up people's day as how you lightened mine. There's so many things that I'm ever eternally sorry for; cursing too much, making offensive jokes, being too straightforward to an extent of hurting your feelings, hurting you while I was hurting myself, taking you for granted, not telling you how much I appreciate you being around me and trust me, the list goes long. I hope life treats you as gentle as how you treated me (by kicking me to wake me up), I hope Allah swt rewards you tenfold, I hope you find what you're meant to do in life and if you find yourself not liking where you are then, I hope God gives you the courage to let go and move on. I love you for everything you are, everything you've done for me, everything you have been. Take care, I won't ever forget you and I hope you won't ever forget me too. *(sedut hingus)*
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